dear my beloved one,
the beginning of today was not the best of days. but in the morning after i waked, i was forgiven for something i never want to have happen again- i flipped. i haven't done that in a long time (by the grace of God) and i am going to strive every single day for the rest of my life to never turn into the 'kraken' again.
today i woke and was blessed yet again by the Lord and His goodness in my life. i have a wonderful life. i am breathing, living, loving, and laughing with the best people in the world. for that i am eternally grateful.
i have decided to lay the kraken to sleep. to kill her off. not suppress her inside but to release her forever. it will be a daunting task, but for you, my beloved one, it is worth all the cost.
i found this quote in my journal today and i would like to share it with you. just so you know how much i am grateful for you.
"i know, more surely than i know anything, that any pang of healing or forgiveness or goodness i have ever felt comes solely from the grace of God" -- Philip Yancey
i love you more than words can describe. more than life itself. more than i could ever show you in this life. beloved one you are half of me, as i to you. and together we can do great things. but we must always remember the grace of our Father and the love He has shown us in order for this to work.